My precious boy, 6 months have gone by without you and I'd be lying to myself and the world around me if I said everyday waking up to your empty bed hasn't been a living nightmare. I try so hard to carry on for your Daddy and your brothers but I want nothing more than to be with you again. I miss you my sunshine. I miss the way you'd smile when I kissed your cheek, and how you'd try to kiss me back. I miss your scent. I miss your sweet sounds, the sounds of your food pump, oxygen concentrator, your pulse oximeter.. I just miss it all. I miss you. 
I've been so sure to take you everywhere we go and include you in every way I possibly can think of, but nothing compares to you physically being here with us. 
I love you Grant Man.